Friday, January 9, 2009

A Tribute To a Friend

For my friend *L*

She lies silent in her hospital bed,
her brilliant blue eyes are closed.
A machine breaths in and out for her,
She cannot even wiggle her toes.

Lights are dimmed, voices hushed
and wires run to and fro.
Every two hours shes positioned and turned
She remains silent and can't even moan.

The New Year started with such promise,
what was in her mind we'll never know.
Her Husband went partying without her
came home to find her lying still and cold.

Now why she was in such despair
her friends and kids can only speculate,
for she left not a letter, an email, a note
when she decided to self medicate.

Could it have been a horrible accident?
Could a word from me changed her fate?
Could I have done something to stop her?
If I'd only talked to her that last day?

For you see, in retrospect thinking
for hindsight is 20/20 they suggest.
I'd noticed some bruises on her face
and decided to mind my own business.

Knowing now what I didn't know then,
I am weighed down in remorse.
If I'd pulled her aside and spoken,
Could my words have altered her course?

So she lies silent in her hospital bed
Her brilliant blue eyes are shut
and her friends, co-workers and kids
We never knew we'd miss her this much.


Dana said...

How sad!((Hugs))

Sue said...

What a tearjerker. :-(


Ness said...

We wll never know what lies in the mind of another no matter how close we are to them. May you find your peace.

Debbie Y. said...

I agree with Ness, everyday is a struggle for someone and we don't know what to say to make them happy. They have to make themselves happy. I am so sorry that person was so miserable in her life that now she has made life miserable for her children and loved ones too. That is very sad. Maybe I am looking at this story wrong, but that's how I feel.

darsden said...

How horrible my prayers to all involved. Thankyou for sharing I can imagine how much pain you feel, hopefully sharing will help heal you some. (via reddirtworman)

Reddirt Woman said...

That is so sad for someone to be so depressed and feeling no other way out to decide to self-medicate, but you cannot take this on yourself. If a person is bound to attempt suicide there is nothing that anyone can say to dissuade them. They will tell you they are okay and then will go ahead anyway, sooner or later. Don't beat yourself up on this.


jeepgirl said...

well written... I know you are having a hard time. Hang in there, hug your family (at home and at work) and take care of each other

Vegas Linda Lou said...

Wow, that is really beautiful and very powerful. And sad.